Ive been pretty busy in the past year or so..a while ago my mother got a job being out of state for months at a time, leaving the old house to me. I of course, being the responsible being i am, used that opportunity to throw one long constant party where I got to play the drunken ranting teacher...I did manage to help inspire a few artistic minds in the process, which makes it worth it...ah worth it....those memories:
a neverending stream of vomit blood and tears.
spreading seas of trash and nervous breakdown hallucinations.
peacefull slumber with knives on a burned and bloody mattress the hadnt been covered in sheets for years.
wandering barefoot at 2am through vast soybean fields while staring hopelessly into the stars while screaming like an animal.
dodging the cops.
dodging mself....
then my mother lost her grip on reality...she fell in love with a patient in a maximum security mental ward she had been working at and moved to virginia.
Upon her exit my grandfather kicked me out of that old house. kicked me out of my self indulgent stupor. kicked me out of my perpetual childhood.
I spent a few months homeless, which was educational.
I learned alot about myself then...
Then my friend and I moved to virginia with my mom and that was also educational in a terrible way. I lost my mind like never before...but thats a different story.
I came back and moved in with his family, which were kind stable people who helped pull me out of my darkness almost completely.
I got to see what true selfless caring and concern was like and learned alot from it, I got a job, got my car back and turned my life around.
Not long after that I found love in an old friend from DA I had been keeping in contact with throughout the years, and found out what this thing people call "happiness" is
About a week ago I drove across the country to be here with her in California, where I now sit typing this.
Soon I will be married.
its funny, i can say i truly believe now that "every passing minute is a chance to turn it all around"

creatively I havent been too productive, been working on music more than anything else and soon im gonna hopefully put vocals to it.
if you care to hear any of it feel free to visit

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anyway ive gotta go, take care guys.